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Thursday, December 24th, 2009

foulu

11:06p Aeonus: "The time has come to shatter this clockwork universe forever! Let us no longer be slaves of the hourglass! I warn you: those who do not embrace the greater path shall become victims of its passing!" In other news, today I edited all of my albums on iTunes and my iPod. It took nearly 2 hours. current mood: accomplished

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Thursday, December 17th, 2009

naveen

2:15a deciding to persue a career in make-up is cool. it's not what i had thought i was going to do with myself career-wise, but it's a step away from entry level minimum wage, and im all for -that-...i cant help but think of the irony in it, though. when i was a youngin', i wasnt allowed to wear make-up, and by the time i was 13 and supposed to begin experimenting with it, my parents had divorced and i was living with my dad. i wasnt close with any female friends, so i didnt know how to take care of my skin (i washed my face with a bar of ivory soap and no moisturizer). i had flakey, acne skin, and due to excessive pale-ness, no makeup had been invented that was white enough. now in recent years(about 4) i know more about it's application and skin care, better than the average bear, and actually enjoy it more than i should. i suppose it's that feminine quality that i was terrified of expressing that makes it all the more of an attraction to me. having a costume making hobby has presented alot of challenges in the way of make-up; how to make someone look older, manlier, femenine, childish, etc. and awakened this little white fluff of creativity that i followed down the rabbit hole and into something that could actually be a rewarding carreer(if such a thing exists). i just hope that the school i've chosen, and my financial aid BS works out. i hafto take alot of boring classes that have nothing to do with make-up, but it will look good on paper that im certified in alot of other spa-like things. i had thought we would have had a house by now, and that finances would have changed...at first i thought i would wait it out, and see what happens with the housing situation... but by thinking that, i'm denying my golden rule: DO NOT WAIT ON OTHER PEOPLE, WHEN IT COMES TO PERSUING YOUR CAREER AND EDUCATION. because if i DID, i wouldnt even have my HS diploma right now. it's not right to leave people behind if they need your help, but sometimes you have to take a step back and assess the situation. some folks just arent willing to help -themselves-, and can unknowingly drag you down with them. if we get a house, and the financial aspect changes because of my schooling, we'll just hafto cross that bridge when we get there...i've got a good man with me, and of all the things in my life plan, that was the most unexpected. he's very supportive of any educational endeavor and never questions, or nay-says my ambitions. what more could a girl need? im cresting unknown waters right now, and im not sure if my boat is going to make it. the LAST thing i need is someone FUCKING NAY-SAYING the whole journey. positive thinking is a must, because when you have a better attitude, better things happen. dont get me wrong, alot of times your gonna find some very practical, down to earth people in the half-full category...but im negative enough in my own mind without anyone else's assistance. i need positive energy, as gay as that sounds. send me some positive energy! :P

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